idk man :D so booored

I'm going to bed
and your smell still lingers
in my sheets

I'm sleepy
and keep sensing your presence
eventhough you're not here

im dreaming
and you're here
and your gentle lips
knock me out
split me into atoms
only your arms around me
keeps me together

I'm soaring
and you're fading
I'm alone
but at one with the world
even our shitty neighbors
can make me smile

I'm falling
my screams drown
in comparison to others
the world is burning
and you're gone

I wake up

and you've forgotten my name

uuuh letter O:

So.. I wrote a letter ^^" but I don't  think I'm going to give it away.. instead I'll post it here :D ~genius~

Dearest
How shall I ever survive?
I cant stand waiting, I have to see you again. The distance seems endless and time barely passes, as if it has been decided, there be eternity 'til I shall gaze upon your face and take your hand, eternity for me to be near you again.
Then so be it.
Because neither distance nor eternal waiting can stop my loving you, in this way that I do.
You are the highlight of my day, a sunshine judt waiting to break through the clouds to once again lighten up everything around you and with it my day.
the thought of seeing you again is what lets me make it through the day. Knowing that with second that passes and every single breath I take, I some one step closer to being with you again.
Needless to say, I miss you, and you calming voice, more than anything.
Looking forward to seeing you.

Sincerely yours

-c
xoxo

I don't really know why its such a big deal though?

So I'm feeling like staying up late :3 reading this semi-sad poetry... and this is most likely gonna be a mashup of fragments from different poems or short stories that I've read during tonight ^^ none of this is my own all creds. to ~deadorsleeping @deviantart ^_^

I want you to know that I miss you

Every single second of every single day,

But I don't want this anymore. 

I don't want to worry about when I 

Will see you next, or whether or not

You'll feel like talking to me today. 

I think I might need you,

But here's the thing:

I really wish I didn't. 

I wish it was you,

And not me.

You are a hand for him to hold

While he thinks of her

And tries to forget the emptiness

And the fact that he is alone. 

I don't regret it. 

Not yet.

My sheets are crumpled from

Being horribly wide awake 

And restlessly unconscious,

But they still smell like you. 

And it is achingly cruel. 

My hands don't fit in yours

But I keep trying to force them to.

And I know you will let me 

Because I am weak and I

Will undress when you ask me to, 

But I really hope you don't.

And I can feel you hand slipping

From mine even though I beg

You to stay because I hate

The word goodbye and how

You look as you walk away. 

The crying came the day you ripped

My heart out of my chest and carried

It with you as you walked away. 

And you have still never returned it. 

Am I alright? 

No, I don't think so.

I'm not sure if I ever was. 

I told you how I loved you before

You left, but you didn't care. 

And you don't now.

I hope you miss me a little

Like I miss you.

And I wish that you loved me

Like I did you.

It hurts to remember all the 

Nights we spent together

Because I now know that

They were all a lie. 

But I actually believed you

When you said that you cared.

And most of me still wants to.

And when you close your eyes to sleep,

Know that I am alone and curled up

In a ball trying to keep myself together. 

Sleep will not be so easy when 

When you're not in my sheets.

The loneliness swallows me whole

And I can't escape its grasp. 

The tears continue to fall

With no shoulder to contain them.

Sorry for the long post ^_^"

hope you're having a great day/night :) and if your not having a great night/day then I hope for you that it turns better c:

love 

-c

Everyday I'm tumbelin'

Yay tumblr!

Oh god what have I done! o___o

well.. time to explore the deapths of Tumblr i guess xD

Have a contuined awesome day/life/week/months/year/what ever I don't even know .__."

Boredom and rainybowzies

If only it could be true...

I keep having these dreams
Of you and me
Feeling alone but being together
When I wake up
you've left my side
leaving all loneliness behind
I never thought I'd feel like this

I keep having these dreams
Of you and me
So in love, that every touch
seems like a new spark
But when I wake up

You've left my side
Leaving no trace
I never thought love could be like this

I keep having these dreams, you see
Dreams where you hold and love me
Dreams where you know
All the things I dare not say
Dreams where all I see in your eyes is love
And you whisper of eternal love

But the reality is cruel
And I'm only another little fool
I'll never know how you feel
or if any of it could become real
For all that really matters
is your happiness

Your ignorance seems lethal to me

I wuz not sad :I

I was not gonna be sad,I swear I tried to stay happy, but I failed... I just wanna die... It's not fair! why can't I be as happy as they seem? they're happily in love, sneaking of in the middle of class, together, though most people don't know... I'd want to be like that? so how come I can't? :(

I guess it's because I'm busy? unlike most of my classmates, I tend to do all of my homework, and send in all of our reports and essays, in good time, which means not the night before due date.
And it takes alot of my sparetime I know that, but I still get alot of sleep and I try to seem as happy as I can :I

But as soon as I'm alone, I get an urge to curl up in the corner and cry untill there's nothing left inside of me. Everything just gets worse... I guess I just can't really cope with lonelyness...

I'm sad, oh so sad.

There are tons of beautiful young girls out there.. but I won't ever be one of you
So please, let me just sit here for a while, pity my self
and start digging a grave for a less beautiful mind....

God gave us
Eyes to see
Smiles to give
Lips to kiss
Hands to hold
And minds to think of one another
But to me these things don't seems to come easy

It seems to be
That the world and me
Have lost our beauty
If we ever had any