Teenage sadness- wedensdayzzzz :D

There has been torn a hole in my chest and at the moment I seem to be filling it with sugar and sit-coms... I'm feeling like a chubby sad little kitty v.v


Drowning my depression in sugar
Living life at its worst
Only alive to see you
Dreams of us together torture my mind
I keep smiling at you
and hide the tears

But tears fall
when you look away
I need you
Or I can't stay
You don't belong on earth
angelic creature
so divine
wished you were mine

Living through another hopeless day
we're talking, laughing
Time's up and we go
our separate ways
you to her
and I to the loneliness
yet another day spend
Is it all in vain?
You make me forget the pain

But tears fall
when you're away
I need you
without I can't stay
I don't belong on here
Hellish creature
Too blind I still...
wish you were mine

I hope you don't see
How I try not to feel
around you and you're
irresistible smile
charming laughter
I'll keep on breathing
for the sole purpose of you
Hope dies as the last

Wearisome Wedensday

Well... bassicly it's just pouring down, it's cold and I have homework to do... so I decided just to give you a poem this week...

Maybe next week it'll be something a little more interesting of some sort (:
Hope you're all have a way better week then I am v.v *sigh*

I seem to have fallen for you
Like tiny drops of rain
Of a clear blue sky
You're never gonna know
Because I'm scared
Of how it could hurt you
If you knew
how love decided
to catch me of guard
and how I
out of the blue
Fell madly in love with you <3

'Till Next week ;** <3

Luvz and huuugz and kizzez xD ( No, not really, no...)

Mondays Hug

I'm unstable
when my sugar level runs dry
It takes you less then a word
To get me high
Not even one touch
and it has already been too much
My dreams show me every single wish
But I knew all off this
I knew I'd want
Something I cannot have
I knew I'd long even more
when I'd be ignored

A single word
and my secure bubble popped
A single word
Is never enough
A single word
Can hurt so much

Darling would you stop for a second?
stop being so nice?
stop smiling like that?
and kill me instead
I need you to
for my heart to move on..
I'm the saddest circus clown
Now it's just a frown
and imprisoned tears
from aching heart

Tea-Time! Thursday ^^

Heyy out there ^^

Well I promised to post something every week... and since i most likely wont have time this weekend (including tomorrow), I decided today might be a good day...

So bassicly, I'm just a really noce, quiet girl, who's a good listener and doesn't really get noticed until she has to work in groups with other people, because I am one of the few people in my classes, to actually pay attention ^^" ( yep, I got nothing better to do)...
It's not because I don't like these new person who I have to go to school with for the next three years... I just don't really feel welcome in their society.. so to say.
I went to a boarding school last year because I didn't really feel well at my school anymore... Now my only goal is to do well in school... oh, and maybe try to be friends with that one super overly cute guy who already has a girlfriend... or the muscician who seems nice but has some friends that don't really accept my defensive enclosed person... x___x

Yes I know.. I'm just being stupid, aint I?
But I don't wanna scare these people of by being the real freaky me xD

But what I wanted to post this week was just a short introduction  and now that's done...

I wish you all a fanbulous ( fantastic/fabulous) weekend!! ;D

Until some random point next week ;] <3