I don't really know why its such a big deal though?

So I'm feeling like staying up late :3 reading this semi-sad poetry... and this is most likely gonna be a mashup of fragments from different poems or short stories that I've read during tonight ^^ none of this is my own all creds. to ~deadorsleeping @deviantart ^_^

I want you to know that I miss you

Every single second of every single day,

But I don't want this anymore. 

I don't want to worry about when I 

Will see you next, or whether or not

You'll feel like talking to me today. 

I think I might need you,

But here's the thing:

I really wish I didn't. 

I wish it was you,

And not me.

You are a hand for him to hold

While he thinks of her

And tries to forget the emptiness

And the fact that he is alone. 

I don't regret it. 

Not yet.

My sheets are crumpled from

Being horribly wide awake 

And restlessly unconscious,

But they still smell like you. 

And it is achingly cruel. 

My hands don't fit in yours

But I keep trying to force them to.

And I know you will let me 

Because I am weak and I

Will undress when you ask me to, 

But I really hope you don't.

And I can feel you hand slipping

From mine even though I beg

You to stay because I hate

The word goodbye and how

You look as you walk away. 

The crying came the day you ripped

My heart out of my chest and carried

It with you as you walked away. 

And you have still never returned it. 

Am I alright? 

No, I don't think so.

I'm not sure if I ever was. 

I told you how I loved you before

You left, but you didn't care. 

And you don't now.

I hope you miss me a little

Like I miss you.

And I wish that you loved me

Like I did you.

It hurts to remember all the 

Nights we spent together

Because I now know that

They were all a lie. 

But I actually believed you

When you said that you cared.

And most of me still wants to.

And when you close your eyes to sleep,

Know that I am alone and curled up

In a ball trying to keep myself together. 

Sleep will not be so easy when 

When you're not in my sheets.

The loneliness swallows me whole

And I can't escape its grasp. 

The tears continue to fall

With no shoulder to contain them.

Sorry for the long post ^_^"

hope you're having a great day/night :) and if your not having a great night/day then I hope for you that it turns better c:

love 

-c